Wednesday, April 3, 2013

The Beauty of Surrender

Sometimes you have to give up to receive the most precious things in life.

In December we did our last round of infertility medications. I spent a little time grieving the loss of a child I never had. Bryan didn’t know how to help and I didn’t know how to voice what I was feeling. Bryan did an excellent job of being emotionally available and a listening ear. That was a huge accomplishment for him as he had become so emotionally vacant after being wounded.

We were going to move on … but I didn’t know to how at first.

I resolved pretty quickly to being childless. We were already abnormal in the civilian world because of his injuries and now we didn’t have children. The question that everyone asks, “Do you have kids?” became more and more painful to answer. I just started telling the truth.

“We can’t have kids.”

I started making big plans for 2013. I made plans to see friends, went skiing and booked a very adventurous trip to Costa Rica. I hid everyone on Facebook that was pregnant so I wouldn’t be painfully reminded of how I can’t have one of my own.

I knew I was going to move on. I always had and would continue to do so with grace and humility. Because of infertility, I was thankful for what I learned about my marriage, my friends and myself. If I had to experience infertility at least I could help others by sharing my story.

And then came the news we were almost too afraid to hope for. 

Our baby is due September, 2013.

Below is a video of our journey through infertility.

16 comments:

Ann Mowrey said...

What a beautiful video with the happiest of endings! Congratulations and best wishes to you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

Congrats!!! So happy for you both.

Don Manzek said...

I nominate this for one of the best
'feelgood' stories of the year - you guys rock !

Sunny said...

congrats!!!! so happy for you both!!!

Elise said...

thank you for sharing your story! The video was beautiful. Congrats and God bless!

Warren said...

Wonderful!!

Li Stanton-Tompkins said...

yay Cheryl and Mr. Cheryl! I am super super excited for you. I don't have the words to express how much I can relate to your story, but I can say that I am so glad for your family and we are rejoicing with you for your news!

Abby said...

CONGRATS!!!!! My husband and I fought a long battle to become parents also and I know that place that you were. I am SO glad that you all kicked infertilities ass like my husband and I did.. I can not wait to hear the news that your happy healthy baby is here in September! :)

Allie Axel said...

This warmed my heart... I am really, really happy for you both!

Renee said...

Oh my goodness....Congratulations!!! I have followed you for so many years and I am soooooo happy for you and your husband!

texlilo said...

I am so thrilled and happy for you! You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to reading more as you continue through this journey!

colleen fischer said...

Congratulations! After years of infertility and emotional torment, I recently decided to "surrender." I found so much comfort in your story. Thank you for sharing!

colleen fischer said...

Thank you for sharing. I have recently surrendered after a long struggle and exhausting emotional toll. Your story is incredibly comforting.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations...

May be have a wonderful time with your little bundle of joy.. You totally deserve all happiness in the world.

Anonymous said...

All I have to say is WOW! what a beautiful video you have there. My husband and I just gave birth to my son May 4th 2013 and it was amazing. I hope and pray for you and your husband to have a beautiful healthy baby :)

Annalisa Arnold said...

Congrats!