Yesterday was Bryan's 4th Alive Day. I was feeling very emotional the night before as I watched the past two episodes of "Army Wives" about TBI. I quit watching this show a while ago because it brought up too much "stuff". Sometimes it's hard enough to feel what is going on in your own life that it becomes too hard to see it be played out on TV.
However, a wounded warrior wife texted me and told me to watch as it was going to be about TBI. I watched as Joan got treatment for what seemed was a mild TBI. My husband was never offered that. We sought out help on our own 3 1/2 years later. That is another reason why I quit watching the show, it isn't realistic in some avenues. However at the end when they deployed out of the hanger it brought back those old feelings. Lonliness, fear, nervousness, pride, anger, etc.
Nonetheless I knew my emotions were running high because the day I got this call changed my life forever. The anniversary was coming and I couldn't stop it or avoid it so I decided to wallow in my grief for a couple of hours.
With all that being said I am in such a good place, we are in a such good place. When Bryan called he knew something was wrong and I explained how I was feeling. He was so caring and thoughtful. Before he would have said just get over it, this day comes every year. It's amazing it took this many years to get here but I give the credit to God. Prayer, deligince, patience, and understanding is what got us here. I never forget what we have been through and I would do it all again if I had to. We are lucky, blessed beyond belief that Bryan is still here. We celebrated with a nice steak dinner complete with dessert and had a wonderful Alive Day party last weekend. All our friends and family were here to celebrate how far he has come.
Happy Alive Day to my Hero, my love, my husband.