I spent last weekend in Nashville with my sister. We went to see the Black Eyed Peas concert and we had a blast. We spent Saturday with my nephew and mom and then I met my dad Sunday morning for brunch at the Opryland Hotel. It was a great weekend. I got home around 4:30 on Sunday as it was Valentine's Day and Bryan had a dozen fuchsia roses, a spa gift certificate for me, and we made fondue at home. It was a really great night and he even helped clean up the dishes.
Even though things are great Bryan still struggles in some areas. One thing I probably haven't mentioned before is that Bryan does not sleep in our bed. He sleeps downstairs in the recliner every night. Sometimes he sleeps really good until 4 a.m. and then he will try to come to bed only to not sleep. I think Bryan's legs do better being propped up. While not sleeping in the same bed might be devastating for some married couples for us this is the norm. If he can get sleep we will do whatever it takes. When Bryan was in Iraq I would have done anything to have him sleeping safe and sound in our bed. I would love to have him in the bed but he doesn't rest there at all. I can make that sacrifice for him to get sleep.
Bryan has been doing really well with his impulse control but he did slip up when I was out of town. This is a side affect of his frontal lobe Traumatic Brain Injury. He took a large chunk of money out of savings for my Valentine's Present. It is really sweet that he got me such a nice gift but he should have charged it to the debit card. I also gave him the credit card so that he could rent the drill hammer from Lowe's to chip up the floor leveler in the basement that didn't work as planned. He didn't rent it but went to the Tanger Outlets to return some things and ended up charging 400 dollars worth of clothes at Banana Republic. I never spend that much money at once on clothes and I was upset that he did this. I didn't get into it on Valentine's Day when I got home but I did address the issue. He said he didn't look at the price tags and some of the shirts he got were $70.00 a piece. He said he was going to return them. I think we will do that today. He has always been impulsive when I am out of town. I am not sure why but that is when it happens. I hope that he can get back on track with this.
I am praying that the good things that are happening, continue. It's really hard for someone that deals with PTSD and TBI everyday to relish when things are good. I am always scared he is going to come home one day and the bottom will drop out. Bryan is extremely superstitious and maybe I am becoming that way as well cause I don't even want to talk about it as it might jinx it. For now though, I am going to try to be less cautious and truly enjoy it.