We had a lovely Christmas party for Bryan's company here at the house. I ended up getting sick and went to the doctor the day of the party. I had a bad sinus infection and got on anti biotics. I was determined to not be sick on Christmas. By the time the party started I was tired, couldn't breathe, and had lost my voice. I took a handful of motrin (we have like a lifetime supply of that stuff in the house) and was able to pull the party off. It was a good time.
We headed to Nashville for Christmas and it was so much fun with it being my nephew's first Christmas. First off he is beautiful and adorable and I am not just saying that because he is my relative but he really is. You can judge for yourself.
We had a blast watching him open presents and playing with his toys. We had all the family over that night and Bryan did fairly well. When he needed the break from all the people talking he would just go somewhere quieter for a while. We ended up going to my moms friends house the next day. Bryan did pretty good not knowing most of the peopl there. Shortly after dinner though he was giving me the look that he was ready to go. I knew what it meant so instead of prolonging it we just got ready and headed home.
I had a really great time with everyone and we are so blessed. Even in this bad economy we all got extremely nice gifts. We are so fortunate.
As the new year closes I of course reflect back on the past year. It has been a roller coaster with another surgery, then the fight with the VA on Bryan's rating, to Bryan pulling himself off his meds and me being the most scared I have been in my life for his well being to health issues of my own. I have also reflected on the people that we have met on the trips that helps my husband adapt to his new life. It is amazing how people that have never been in this situation give their time to help our wounded soldiers. Even though humanity can be quite disgusting at times there are those that make you realize how beautiful life is. They give and give and never expect anything in return. We are so blessed for the people that we have met along the way and the wonderful wives who have listened along this road of recovery.
I have also discovered a few things about friends that I thought were friends but then they drop of the face of the planet when things get hard and I need to lean hard on them. I guess some are too self absorbed to ask how are you today? I am making it a goal to make sure I really ask and listen to those that mean the most to me. I am so thankful for several individuals that work for the Wounded Warrior Project. I am thankful that they did over the phone crises intervention when I didn't even know what to do or where to turn. To those that invited me to Soldier Ride even though my husband was too displaced to go. They made me realize that they are there for me and that they truly care for the caregivers.
We are so blessed beyond measure. Even though every year after Bryan was hurt is a huge emotional roller coaster, he is still here, thriving and trying his best to get beyond this. Thank you Dr. Harch for using hyperbarics and giving your time and energy to treat OIF and OEF service members. You are a selfless doctor and one that your peers could learn a lot about if they just listened. I finished your book today and I am impressed with your willingness to press forward for a nation wide acceptance of the miracle of hyperbarics. I hope that someday everyone who is in a crises situation can benefit from this treatment and be healed.
Here is to a hopefully more stable 2010.